♥ Saturday, October 20, 2007 2:59 PM
brother paul spoke to the 43 of us yesterday.
in a way telling us to go to poly.
because it may be better suited for us.
argh.
this sucks.
i hate this feeling.
like seriously.
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whyyyy.
why must i go through all these in my life.
i hate this okay.
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my father dont care.
my mum dont know anything.
my brother will just die if i told him.
howww.
monday im going to speak to brother paul.
all by myself.
because no one in the family is willing to give me support at all.
they will all just take me as a failure.
a major one.
they'll just leave me alone to suffer on my own.
there's no one on the earth now that knows how i feel.
not even the other 42 people.
because we all have different families.
and probably mine is one that doesnt give a damn about anything.
i will fight on my own.
i will do what im supposed to do.
i will.
it's just a terrible time of my life now.
it's really disgusting.
and i cant believe im going through this.
it's horrible.
really really bad.
but no one understands.
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