♥ Monday, December 17, 2007 3:47 AM
settled.
and im glad.
know what?
i think im too nice i got bullied.
went there, waited, and finally got the point.
"what you want?".
that was the first sentence.
so rude right?
then in between was.
"it's over, get it into your head okay?".
i regretted what i did.
and he said,
"i told you not to regret. and you said you wouldnt. next time think twice before rejecting someone".
so fucking rude right. gosh.
then then he keep saying,
"if there's nothing else, im going up. ive got a long day tomorrow".
must be meeting that bitch.
then, i asked why no more.
he said,
"because i dont like you anymore and i have someone new and i like her a lot".
and he said she nice.
because she lets him say fuck.
like what the fuck right.
he was the one who wanted to promise me not to say fuck.
in the end he also said it throughout our relationship what.
mad.
dont know what is his problem.
"you made this happen. and nothing's going to change anything".
"too bad im a guy. i forget easily. i do the impossible".
"i wanted you back so badly but you didnt give a damn what. so now why must i give a damn".
"thats your problem now. not mine. dont tell me about your problems".
WHAT THE FUCK.
what a bastard.
i cant believe this man.
ive never seen him so rude and fierce and all.
well, i guess thats when you dont love that person anymore.
it's like GUYS totally suck?
they forget easily and they get someone new easily as well.
not all GUYS actually.
maybe it's only jude.
cassanova as ive said.
he can never live without having a girl by his side. NEVER.
i can tell you that if the bitch leave him or he leave her, a week or two later, there'll be someone new.
thats the trend so far.
oh and they met online.
how desperate.
it was since june.
i feel so cheated.
ewww.
disgusting.
oh and she's such a loser.
scardey cat.
set friendster to private all.
so sudden.
scared to show bitch face la.
no choice.
cannot blame.
well, towards the end, i felt GOD. im serious.
my hair on my hands stood.
with a voice ringing in my ears.
"jude's not the guy for you. he doesnt deserve someone so nice like you. leave him. he'll regret in time to come".
i was wearing my thick thick jacket. i wasnt cold.
but i felt something.
someone.
telling me, someone better will come by.
jude's not worth it.
I AGREE!
i let him go up.
and i didnt shed a tear.
till now.
strong i am huh.
thats cause GOD is with me. always.
come to think of it.
i really dont deserve to get a boyfriend like him.
someone who'll use violence when he's angry.
eh bitch, watch out eh.
he'll grab you and throw you onto the wall, cupboard or bed.
or he'll push you here and there.
slam the door behind you.
everything a guy shouldnt do.
what more your husband to be.
haha.
yupp.
after much thought and many true friends' advices, i felt good.
many told me he's not worth it.
he replaced me so quickly and all. and he was a bastard.
im lucky i have these TRUE friends that some people dont even have.
when his girlfriend dont want him, he got no one to turn to but his mum. and he wont.
poor thing.
alright.
guess i have to hit the sack now.
exhausted after one whole day of crying.
my eyes need rest.
I LOVE MY FRIENDS.
goodnight world.
<3
p.s. tomorrow is gonna be a brand new start, like the relationship between jude and i never happened before. (:
-you go girl!
